Octopus swimming underwater in ocean

Good morning lovely readers. Brace yourselves for something a bit different today. For many years, more than half my life, I’ve struggled with mental health issues. My brushes with psychiatric wards are documented in these blogs: https://orladoherty.com/a-pint-of-heineken-and-a-shot-of-lithium-please-part-one/ and https://orladoherty.com/a-pint-of-heineken-and-a-shot-of-lithium-please-part-two/

I always used laughter to get through. I consider myself blessed that my natural disposition beckons humour and the ability to find those silver linings. I strive to find joy inside adversity. I continue to seek out something positive in everything I do. I’ve tackled mental health issues head on and am proud of where I am today. This morning, I wrote this poem that might resonate with some of you. It’s a bit deeper than my usual stuff, but is significant of my mercurial personality. (: Don’t worry, it doesn’t happen often! Have a lovely Sunday wherever you are, and thank you for reading!

The Octopus Within

For years she tortured me silently

Whispering words only I could hear

This magnificent creature waved all eight in rhythm 

So often she spewed venom inside my gut

She was glorious and strong, dancing ‘round my soul

Spitting out suspicion at my mind

My thoughts fuelling her desire to own me

Smiling at me as her belly filled up, she stung me


But I’m aging and wise, and she is older and tired

No longer quietly consuming me, her puny arms are weak

When she visits how I brace myself!

Laughing at her I take back control


She comes less and less these days

Her power shrinking inside me

She’ll always be there, invisible to You

She lies dormant, but forever in Me

©Orla Doherty 2022

10 Responses

  1. Absolutely Stunning Poem Orla O’ Doherty 👏 You have captured the struggle with mental health issues so honestly and beautifully in this poem ‘The Octopus Within’. It resonates very deeply with me and l know it will for countless others. 👏👏🥰🥰

  2. Orla..you probably won’t remember me..but many moons ago I played squash with you! I just want to say how much I enjoy your blog. Keep being you and you are a fantastic writer…Karen Butler

    1. Hi Karen! Wow, I am only seeing your message now. I’m so sorry for the delay in replying. How are you? Where are you these days? Thanks so much for your lovely comment and thank you for reading. I really appreciate that, and am glad you are enjoying the blogs. Orla xxx

      1. I’m in Carrickmines with my 10 year old son! Haven’t lifted a racquet in God knows how long but hear about it through Sue. So lovely to reconnect with you again after all these years. I just love your blogs…so honest and a great giggle too. Karen xx

        1. Thank you Karen! That’s lovely to hear! I’d say it’d be like riding a bike for you if you picked up a racquet again. Thanks a mill for reading and for the support! I really appreciate it. xx

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